no.18

today i such a jerk...make mei n gin pissed off...soli gals...im soli...i nvr wanna b like tat b4...i relli over stressed...when i was wif u gals js now...they kip calling me sms me abt 2nite discussion...coz dis afternoon...i kip telling dem tat i cant attend d discussion coz i hv a rehearsal tonite...dunno why they dun wan understand my situation...onli care abt demself...wan me come den i must...

2nite rehearsal make me bo mood oso...those officers gv me a strange look...d rev ask me n another female officer stay wif her coz abt d money matters...las yr band performance...i spend RM9xx for d decoration so church wil subside RM400 for me...tat female officer claimed tat i owe her RM2xx so she claimed d RM400 from church...wat her done is not under proccedure...everyone noe im a 'stpm' person...den i asked her wat money i hvnt pay to her...she said is some debt ba...ask her show me d receipt...she said forget...nvm...i dun care tat money...u like js take it ba...den another officer rush to me said no matter wat i must attend d discussion abt a band member lost d instrument coz been stolen by thief...n i tol dem very clearly tat d boy must pay full cost of d instrument...

dey kip say mai dis mai tat la....n kip ask how abt other band...n such case or not...i tol dem yes...pay full amount...i dun care wat they tink...coz i tol dem my thought...they wan listen or not...js dun care...but dun blame me for not telling clearly...

during d rehearsal...dam fking adult...dun wanna help...tot i too free or wat...kip kpkp thr...so i n some frenz move those heavy stages to backstage...i hurt tio my bek...n cut by a nail...js bek from hospital...dun noe tmr how to play piano...bo bian...forced myself ba...

abt js now in maple...my mei spam d mit from 9am til 6pm ba...i woli abt her...non stop one...n she dun wan listen to me n gin...my heart stabbing ba...i blame myself why i cant help her...why...n leave her thr alone training...i so dam useless...

wel...gratx my mei helmed las nite...me n gin so happy abt it...mei...gin...soli...reli soli...