no.31

well...how long i bo update my blog?...answer is i dun noe...dun noe whr to start or how to start...now onli kip my mind is im a loser...why i said myself like tat...very simple...i cant make everything rite...

after i bek or before i go to tokyo...many things happen to me...i reli wanna out from dis family...but been lockdown by grandpa...grandpa said dis family...onli me can take over dis coy...my dad is useless..onli noe how to waste more money...my another uncle...onli noe abt marathon...im d onli grandson in dis family...so i must take over dis coy for sure...i cant choose another path...i like music but i hv to gv up...well...bo bian...like other said...i no choice lagi....yayaya...i noe...dun kip remind me of tat...everyone onli noe tat i rich...but i dun hv freedom...js now fight wif my uncle...get hit by him on my face...dam hurt...fine..u r my uncle...let u hit...fine for u?

well abt d band performance...i tot everything settle le...but dis afternoon..one of d officer called me n scold me tat im not responsibility....i dun do my work done...n i bo answer or reply their call or msg....pls....do understand me...i reli bz nowadays...i hv to force myself to take a proper meal...i hv to force myself stay awake to do all my works...i hv to force myself stay alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

1 cal in spoiled my mood...am i look like a dog or wat....kip asking me do dis n tat...i said i cant handle so much...but u all said i can...dun look down myself...bla bla bla...a msg come n said im d pianist for dis big group choir wil combined wif other church's choir...dam....i dun even practice once b4...u all practice many times...now u wan me embarrass in front of other ppl....said why i play so suck....who u tot...im js ordinary guy...nid practice....me suck den why wanna appointed me as ur pianist...cant find anyone else?

wan me explain wat...i do explain why d band cant accept d invitaion ....i do tell...u said u wil support what decision i make...but end up is u go accept n want me take d risk....i hv d rite n reject ur invitaion....u wan d performance...u go urself....i oledi wanna gv up to b officer in dis uniform group...but when u 1st time join in...u find me said u wanna noe me n ask my opinion...i share wif u everything..n my experience...but did u appreciate?...u like tai ji but i dun like...u d one make d things wrong...but u bo admit...den play ur favourite trick...taiji....who d one so lucky?....tats me....hahaha....ya...is me....im d loser.....

u cal me said im wrong...who dare gv d mission to me coz i not responsibility...halo...i working tat time...told u im not free...den u say i wanna ran away from u n other officers....HALO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......i working....u tink i working for u or wat......u r my boss or wat.....i cant free to travel....js bcoz dis dam family n dis dam responsibility....dam fcking ba....can pls do me a favour....STOP BLAMING ON ME......U WAN ME KISIAO OR WAT.....WAN ME DIE...RITE?

OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
I DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
CAN BO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF I DIE CAN LET ME GO????????????????????????????
BOSS....WAT TIME U WAN ME DIE?
WAN ME GET D PERMISSION FROM U
N W8 U SAY WAT TIME I CAN GO TO DIE????????????????????????????????????????